White Boys Have Feelings

Everybody tells me to get over it, to move on, that im overacting but im gonna tell you guys something. Getting girls has always been easy for me, lol I got that thing that makes them bitches go insane. Before I met her all I cared about was talking to mad girls and getting pussy. I never thought I would fall in love with someone, and then she came along. From the first time we talked we instantly clicked. We laughed at everything and I could be my weird ass self around her and she never judged me. I would stay up all night talking to my princess. Nobody ever cared about me so much. She believed in me and made me feel like I could do anything in the world. I remember when all I wanted to do was end my life she made me see I was worth it. I really thought she was my forever and I thought we had something real. I know I made a lot of mistakes, and that I hurt her sometimes, and I wasn’t always the best boyfriend but I really did love her. Nobody understands my struggle to be judging me. It’s really hard to be gone for a while and you find out your bestfriend passed away and the most important person in your life replaced you in a heartbeat. I try to be strong but sometimes honestly my depression gets the best of me. Everybody tells me im better without her and that I need to give this new girl a chance, but it’s hard to trust any girl anymore. She tells me that she loves me, and that she’s down for me, and that she can fix anything, but how do I know it’s not the same shit all over again? I wish everyday my best friend was here to make me laugh and tell me it’s all gonna be ok. Im far from perfect but I got a good ass heart and I know when im ready God is gonna find me a girl to make me happy and fix my heart. I just want to be the happy IDGAF funny person I used to be. Im tired of being lonely, angry, and depressed. I wish this would all go away. Until then foreveralone waiting for my other half.